Author Archives: nikiloadian

not good and not evil

Posted on 10 May 2019 by nikiloadian

In times we are not what we hoped or wished to be. In times we do things we were sure would never do and would only happen to others. But then we find us doing these things because we can´t … Continue reading →

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not to be

Posted on 7 January 2019 by nikiloadian

life passes. in times pretty fast. Some believe in an afterlife, some say that they don´t care. The ones who don´t care usually say that it did not hurt before they were born so why should it hurt afterwards. The … Continue reading →

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beneath the surface

Posted on 3 September 2018 by nikiloadian

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being alive. or so.

Posted on 25 November 2017 by nikiloadian

We think so we are, someone said. But what are thoughts? And even if we think are we what we think we are? Are humans as special as they think they are? On the one side I think surely yes. … Continue reading →

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once we are not

Posted on 20 October 2017 by nikiloadian

…and the short time in between we are. There are aeons before and aeons might follow. And we did not care before nor will we care afterwards. It is said. This would mean that back then there was a me … Continue reading →

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Dahab in June

Posted on 17 June 2017 by nikiloadian

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the shepard left the green…

Posted on 27 January 2017 by nikiloadian

… long ago. And the sheep realize it just now. So the sheep are scared. Nobody to feed them, no shelter, all the other sheep over the hill and not at last the weather! So they think. The thought takes … Continue reading →

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lost we are, anyway

Posted on 1 September 2016 by nikiloadian

Nothing to win. Everything to lose. We have a life. Only one. The one chance to live it. The one change to find the right way. Anyone mentioned here something about a secret path called the Right Way? Who is … Continue reading →

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some diving

Posted on 27 August 2016 by nikiloadian
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The darkness within

Posted on 27 August 2016 by nikiloadian

Once something big happened, something that made us sick of being afraid, it might stay a while with you. Even if everything went fine and things worked out: The time of terror leaves some deep grooves in the mind. Thoughts … Continue reading →

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