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Did anyone ever see them? No? So you can’t prove that they are not real! And i can see the rainbow! So no rainbow without unicorns! No? See! Unicorns are true.

The magic of negative argumentation: because you can’t see it it has to be true! The thing about science it that it works in a different way: What you can see is there. But….hello? Did anyone ever see love or an electron? For the love, yes, we can actually see it, but we can as well measure it in different ways. For the electron, yes, we can measure it an build some formulas based on what was measured and use this formulas to explain other things and to use it to explain what is going on in our universe.

Nothing of that can be said for unicorns. Unfortunately.

And hell yes, science changes, knowledge changes, it evolves! Science allows that! Science needs to evolve and to be discussed to make it strong. And the magic is: Science works! Airplanes fly, surgeries are done, buildings are built, food for billions is grown. Unicorns didn’t help much there though.

Science describes reality. Unicorns need believers. Science can then analyse the impact of believes on society and cultures and even individuals. Over time we might even understand why some humans start wars for their believe that unicorns have a golden or a purple horn. Anyway, the believe in unicorns, a football team or a nation, all these are just ideas in our heads which unite people against other people.

we are to old for that shit,

In times we are not what we hoped or wished to be. In times we do things we were sure would never do and would only happen to others. But then we find us doing these things because we can´t act otherwise. Something in us acts against all the rules and all the ideals around us.

We feel that we are about to disappoint others, that we are going to hurt others. We feel bad and guilty and still can´t act any other way.

This is the source of all hypocrisy and self destruction in our world today.

We need to acknowledge that we are at no moment as good as we want to be. Nobody is perfect and humans a very far from being perfect. People around us need to accept these wrongdoings as they would accepts an accident or a thunderstorm. It is not nice and it should not have happened in an ideal world, but we are in this world, which is far from being ideal.

If bullshit strikes or if we experience a new self it is the responsibility of the acting person to act as sensitive and careful as possible respecting other peoples emotions, desires, wishes and needs. At the same time we need to be honest to ourselves and not to blame others for the things we are going to do or we already did.

Whatever we do not only affects us. Everyone around us will need to deal with the consequences of what we did. Here it becomes tricky. Nobody should hurt others on purpose at any given moment for any given reason.

So what if we start with us with not seeing other people actions as a deliberate act to hurt us but as a force of nature as this is what it is? Is it not our responsibility to prepare for these forces of nature by shielding us against all coming with understanding and knowledge and love and care? What if we perceive the world as a big miracle where everything is possible and nobody is to blame for it. Some actions are sad or painful or disappointing or all of it. Just that nobody is to blame for that, it just went down that road and life will go on. (For the time being)

We can have ideals and we can believe in ideals – as long as reality does not trigger the need to act against them. Only a few have the chance not to betray these ideals. The chance to stick to ideals is not a reason to blame others who did not have the chance. Nothing ever happend or happening to us was under our control, not to the good nor to the bad.

… long ago. And the sheep realize it just now.

So the sheep are scared. Nobody to feed them, no shelter, all the other sheep over the hill and not at last the weather! So they think.

The thought takes over and becomes fear. The ugly clouds of fear make it tough to think through. So the sheep decide that something needs to be done. Something needs to happen. Before the fear becomes real.

Nothing should be allowed to change!

So the sheep build walls. They tell themselves the tale of how tough life might be. The story how everything could be without the wall and without the tough decisions to be done makes the round. Sheep talks to sheep and the cloud grows.

Some sheep remember how good the time was when the Shepard took care of everything. So the sheep decide that they need a new shepard. One of them should do it. All the fear and this dark cloud: Only the strongest one could keep them safe! They need the one who gets things done and who does not care about stupid rules!

So it goes. They get the one. And they are not alone. Behind all the green hills are sheep who do the same. The cloud of fear darkens the sun. Nobody new where it started. The surviving sheep remember how it ended. The cloud found a way to become real.

“There is no way out” the surviving sheep say. Sheep are pushed by their fears. And a sheep can´t be a shepard. Fear needs to feed on itself. So it needs to find reasons. So it becomes real.

If the sheep would have the possibility to go back in time they would say: Take the change! The world always changed! It will come as it comes. And the worst thing to do is to be afraid of it. What is helpful is collaboration and the preparation of the best future possible. Hope. Not fear.

If the sheep would just have another chance.

Nothing to win. Everything to lose.

We have a life. Only one. The one chance to live it. The one change to find the right way.

Anyone mentioned here something about a secret path called the Right Way? Who is talking about this secret path nobody is ever able to find? It is just the ugly truth that there is not such a thing as the right path. There is a path which is always under construction and still no other one than that available. Many people build this path. People we know and people we don’t know and most probably people we will never know. We walk on a path other people build for us. We also live in houses other people build for us. In the end everything around us is made by other people. Including us.

Guilt. What is that based on what is said before. Guilt, this burning stone in the chest that takes away all energy, that turns into depression or aggression. This monster guilt feeds on us and feeds on the fear of what other people will think about us or will feel about us. The guilt mirrors more or less what we would feel if the things we did would have been done to us. And here the reasons for feeling guilty go way deeper than the obvious ones. Guilt is the necessary outcome of being human. The world tumbles and turns and the human is an imperfect being. Guilt is a wrong idea. A good idea would it be to find a way to deal with the shit that happens. Because it happens.